Hetty Green was the richest woman in America. It was the 1900s, and despite living in a male-dominant age, she was a centimillionaire — seen as a peer to tycoons like J.P. Morgan, Andrew Carnegie and John Rockefeller. Just looking at the numbers, many would consider her a great success.
Alas, if you’ve heard of Hetty before, you probably know her for something else. The Guinness World Book of Records calls her the “World’s Greatest Miser.” Legend has it she never turned on the heat, wore shabby old underwear, and when her son Ned broke his leg, sent him to a free clinic for the poor. Poor Ned eventually had to have his leg amputated.
Hetty Green had F.U. money, but I imagine she was not very happy.
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Last week, as I was writing a post about early retirement, I realized I’m currently at this weird stage in my life: feeling satisfied. It’s weird because as far as I can remember, I’ve always been in a different state: feeling like an underdog, wanting to prove myself.
“Satisfaction” here doesn’t mean day-to-day happiness, which goes up and down for everyone. Like how I’m currently fucking annoyed there seems to be double standards: one set of laws for politicians and their families, and another set for the rest of us. But if you zoomed out to 30,000 feet and asked me overall, am I satisfied with my life, would I say yes?
I would, and this is what I’ve learned getting here.
1. Making Sense of Tests
Back when I was growing up, school was all about scoring in exams.
And so, my behavior was primed towards getting the highest marks, instead of learning. In university, I took it one step further: how do I get the best grades with the least effort possible (+no cheating)? I ran cost-benefit analyses in my head: I needed time for computer games, basketball and chasing girls — but I also wanted to score.
Metrics wise I was successful. I graduated with first-class honors while having lots of fun. But today, there’s much of my education which I can’t remember. I aimed to ace the exams and I did — but did I really learn anything?
For most of a young person’s life, we evaluate “performance” through standardized testing. It’s as if we program their minds to believe success is all about scoring high marks. When we’re kids that’s written exams. But when we grow up, maybe that’s why we try to score in the tests of money, cars and houses.
Additionally, in a paper like FEM1013: Mathematics 1 it’s possible to score full marks. 100%. But there’s no limit to the amount of money you can make, or magazine covers you can appear on. If you judge your life by those metrics, how do you know what’s enough?
So here’s the first thing I realized about finding life satisfaction: it comes not from scoring well in every test. It’s realizing that apart from a certain baseline (e.g. food, health, relationships), every other test is really optional.
2. Comparison, the Thief of Joy
The second thing I’ve learned about finding satisfaction is it’s the polar opposite of jealousy, and its seductive cousin: comparison.
Everyone knows jealousy is destructive, but that desire to compare yourself to your boyfriend’s hot colleague? A little harder to avoid.
And so we compare ourselves with others; even our closest friends: who makes the most money, who’s got the most followers, who’s got the most powerful job title? Even noble pursuits can have a dark side: “Oh, I’ve given up the materialistic world of money and things — see how religious I am? (If I can’t beat you in this world, I’ll beat you in the next.)”
The thing is, as someone ambitious and competitive — you’ll always have that desire. So on one hand, we know comparisons make us miserable (even if you win a lot, there’s always someone better), while on the other hand, you sometimes really can’t help it.
What I’ve learned is to work with those feelings you have. Don’t deny them or shut them away. It’s okay to want to win. It’s helped lead to the success you already have today. But how do you manage the dark side of competitiveness? How do you deal with being an insecure overachiever?
By being selfish: live more for your own approval, instead of other people’s.
3. Of Internal and External Motivation
External approval: Jane’s latest Instagram pic has 150 likes. Mine only has 98. What a TERRIBLE day!
Internal approval: I’m happy with how I look today. #blessed 🙂
See the difference? It’s hard, because of the two things we’ve already covered: our obsession with external scorecards, and our desire to compare.
Internal motivation is the superpower that helps you overcome these. You don’t have to score your life by anyone else’s expectations. Choose your own.
The high achiever’s immediate objection: “Of course it’s easy to be satisfied when you can set your own (low) expectations. But I want to be happy AND admired by everyone else.”
My response: Live by your own standards. You’ll be happy and people (at least wise ones) will still respect you. Besides, we overestimate the importance of other people’s views. At the end of your life, apart from your family and some close friends — it won’t matter.
I was already in my 30s before I realized this. Having spent most of my 20s trying to win the status games of money and power. It was a huge burden lifted off my shoulders.
Some people call it “accepting yourself” or “being comfortable in your own skin.”
Whatever you call it, it’s freedom.
4. Different Isn’t Always Good
Freedom is the ability to choose your own path. It doesn’t mean you have to choose a different path.
Reflecting on my own journey, I always felt the urge to be different. Maybe it’s because growing up in a strict environment created an inner rebel. I was also insecure. It’s as if I wanted to prove something, that I could overcome the “normal” rules of society.
And so I explored unconventional paths — in career (making multiple career pivots) and relationships (not settling down early). But I’ve realized there’s no value in being different for the sake of being different. There’s a reason why some things are the way they are.
Some fundamental truths, which I doubt will ever change:
- Financial security is important, but beyond a certain income, not gonna make much difference to your life satisfaction.
- Work that’s a nice blend of what you’re good at, what you like, and is helpful to society is meaningful.
- Counting your blessings and practicing gratitude will bless your life.
- Having good relationships with family and friends is critical. A happy life is a life filled with love.
If I could meet my younger self, this is what I’d tell him: Explore all you want, but remember your time here is limited. Look for fundamental truths. When you realize them for yourself, you’ll know what to do.
5. Balancing Growth vs Satisfaction
The older I get, the more I find myself saying this: “Wisdom is finding balance between the extremes.”
What extremes? If you’re easily satisfied, you might never have growth in your life. But if your expectations are so high that nothing is ever good enough, isn’t that a very painful way to live?
Please, can I invite you to be kinder to yourself?
Take two steps back towards the other side. A little bit of stress is good for you — it leads to growth. But too much, and your health starts to suffer.
A few years back, I was trying to stuff my schedule with as many meaningful things as possible. I would get through a 45-hour work week, try spend >20 hours on this blog, socialize often with friends and family, plus get physically involved in charity work. I wasn’t getting enough sleep and burning out. From the outside, I was chasing all the right things. Inside, I was sick.
Today, I’ve learned a balanced life is more sustainable (and fun!). The recent lockdown‘s reminded me to consider what’s really important. If your family is in good health, if you’ve got good friends, work where you can contribute and learn, and some time and money for hobbies — isn’t that already pretty good?
Yes I know — the world changes and the future is uncertain. There’s no guarantee you’ll always be comfortable. Maybe my skills get redundant and I lose my job one day. Maybe having kids will put me in financial stress. But my point is, I don’t have to allow these to scare me into insecurity anymore.
Come what may, I have faith I’ll be able to handle it.
I am enough.
Enjoy Your Journey
We started with a story about the greatest miser so we’ll end with a story from the other side. Chuck Feeney was a billionaire not many people know about.
We say was not because he’s dead, but because he gave away his 9 billion USD fortune through charities. He’s 86 today, with little money left and no property — living a quiet life with his wife in a rented apartment.
Chuck found the secret for himself; his own path to life satisfaction. In his own words:
“I cannot think of a more personally rewarding and appropriate use of wealth than to give while one is living — to personally devote oneself to meaningful efforts to improve the human condition.”
Sounds pretty satisfied to me.
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I like your blog! sometimes, your english is good, till I have to read a few times to understand the true meaning behind (no offence).
I’m in a miserable/no-direction stage now, and I saw this post. just in time! but, the article is easy to understand yet hard to implement it spiritually.
I guess I have to read a few times more to plug it inside me.
thanks for the great words always.
Thanks very much for your comments. Take care and all the best!
Hi Aaron. Well said. Conclusion is to live our own life as we find it fit to our own
dreams ,desires and satisfaction. We are today living in a world where we are so busy and messed up that sometimes we dont know what we are really chasing after in our short life.
Reading your articles make one realise to differentiate between living our life against
just being alive. We have to constantly reflect and start living our life meaningfully.
We are human beings on this planet and not just beings in this world.
The billionaire’s Giving While Still Living , reminds me of what my Prophet Muhammad ( peace be upon him ) said the same thing.
Thank you for your beneficial articles . It made me able to relate them in a broader and meaningful perspective.
Thank you Ramlee for your kind words and warm thoughts. Wishing you the very best on your journey!
This was something I thought about too during the MCO period. Maybe it’s the age factor, or experience, or changes in life priorities, but whatever it may be, gaining satisfaction in life brings a whole new perspective of life. Thanks a lot for sharing. Truly enjoyed reading your writings.
Thank you so much for your kind words Hajar,
Wishing you the very best!
Thanks for sharing Aaron! I find myself coming to a similar conclusion about the difference between day to day happiness and overall contentment relatively recently (2-3 years ago), and wondered why I hadn’t known earlier in my 20s! Well then I thought to myself, it is precisely because I changed. I grew older.
I must say that your writing has been electric lately, but then we are of similar age and stage in life, so maybe it’s always been great but resonates with me even more now. Keep up the good work! (Or don’t if you don’t want to, because it’s up to your internal motivation and not others! :P)
Thank you so much my friend. May you continue to do amazing things!
Spot on!. Enjoy the journey. It’s not just about the destination.
Thank you so much sir! All the best with your website too!
Awesome! Thanks for sharing. 🙂
Thank you Baymax for your support!